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Movie Script

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Something I wrote for a film class this past summer…hopefully I can shoot it sometime.

INT. LIVING/DINING ROOM, KITCHEN – NIGHT.

MICHAEL walks in as MARIANNE is sitting at a table reading the newspaper. He sits down and they start talking.

MICHAEL

You’ve never thought about it?

MARIANNE

Thought about what?

MICHAEL

Whether our actions really have any effect on the outcome. Whether choosing one thing rather than another leads us down one path rather than another. We think our decisions and actions affect our future, but is this just an illusion? Maybe things happen regardless of our intentions. Things are what they are, and our decisions don’t make any difference. You know the philosopher, Wittgenstein…well he argues that, “the world is all that is the case.” That things just happen and our actions don’t make any difference at all.

MARIANNE

Of course I’ve thought about it. I just don’t know exactly what to think of it. I don’t think we can know whether our actions affect the future or not. Because if we act in a certain way and a certain outcome is achieved, how are we to know that the outcome would have been different if we acted in a different way? We can’t really, which is why we just need to act and see what comes of it.

MICHAEL and MARIANNE sip on coffee.

MICHAEL

Sometimes I don’t know what to think at all. Sometimes I feel totally thoughtless. I just can’t think of anything. I want to, but I can’t. What happens when I stop myself from thinking, or something stops me. I wish I could keep thinking but it’s like there is something blocking me from thinking and I don’t know how to overcome it. I feel I am so close to having a really good thought, but the moment passes before I am allowed to have that thought. Does that ever happen to you?

MARIANNE

Yes. I long to capture things. Capture anything. And everything. But is it ever really possible to capture anything before we lose it. But the moment passes, and I wonder if I could ever again have that feeling or have that thought. It saddens me because I wish to recapture it and hold on to it. But it is also reassuring because I know I can have many more of those unique moments where everything is so clear, and each new thought or feeling can be better than the last.

MICHAEL gets up to grab a newspaper and goes back to the table.

MICHAEL

Not all thoughts or feelings are so clear and enlightening. Sometimes I feel so disconnected from my feelings. It’s like I’m not really the one feeling them, but rather I’m watching them being felt from afar. This is very disconcerting. I want to feel my own feelings entirely. Not just halfway, or not at all, but completely. This is actually harder to do than you’d think. Because if you are immersed in yourself, rather than just a bystander, there’s no way out. You are responsible and held accountable for your thoughts, feelings, and actions. If you just watch yourself from afar, you don’t have to worry about being a certain way. But at the same time, you can’t be free either, because you can only be free if you are being yourself entirely.

MARIANNE gets up and sits on couch.

MARIANNE

What about love? If you have such difficulty feeling anything, can you feel love? I mean, what sets love apart? You can love someone, but what if someone else comes along that you may love just as much or more? Is there any difference between them? Or is love love regardless of who it’s for? Or is love for one person different from love for another based on their differences? Is love about you or them? If it’s about you, I suppose love would be the same no matter with who. But if it is about them, I suppose it would be different based on the person you love.

MICHAEL

I don’t want to talk about love. I mean, if I love someone, I want them to be all for me. In general, connecting with people is so hard. I want to connect with them fully or not at all. But only halfway doesn’t seem worth it, it’s so disappointing. To ever connect or love someone fully would be the greatest success. But I don’t think it’s possible.

MARIANNE

I don’t think it’s ever really possible to know what other people feel or think. We know how we feel and what we’re thinking, but that certainly doesn’t mean that’s what someone else is thinking, even though we may think we’re both feeling and thinking the same, and are therefore connected. But this is a false perception of connectedness. We choose how we feel, and not in relation to others because we don’t actually know how others are feeling or what they’re thinking. Therefore, we’re never really connected.

MICHAEL

I wish I cared more. About anything, everything. I think this proves how inherently selfish we are.

MICHAEL gets up and sits in chair next to couch.

MICHAEL

Enough about all this. Everything is so non-existent anyway. And me, being void of feeling, I don’t want to think about it anymore.

MARIANNE

Alright. Let’s talk about shadows.

MICHAEL

Every idea of yours is more bizarre than the last.

MARIANNE

That’s why you love me.

MICHAEL

I thought we already talked about how I can’t feel anything, especially not love.

MARIANNE gets up and walks around.

MARIANNE

Shadows. What are shadows, copies of what they represent, or a separate entity in themselves? They look just like what they represent, but only in form, not in content. They actually don’t really have any content, and they are just forms. So can they be the same? I mean, they can represent the same things, but are they the same?

MICHAEL

Honestly Marianne, what have you been drinking?

MARIANNE goes to kitchen.

MARIANNE

The same thing as you.

MARIANNE smiles.

MICHAEL

Do you ever realize how boring we’ve become? No one wants to spend time with us because we are so boring. People only want to be in your company if you entertain them. Clearly, we are not entertaining. That’s why we don’t have any friends left.

MARIANNE comes back and sits on couch.

MARIANNE

We have friends, and we’re not boring.

MICHAEL

I think it’s us that got bored with them. The problem with having superior interests is that you end up hating everything. And other people become boring.

MARIANNE

Have you ever noticed that thinking about our lives is much better than actually living them. When I think about things that I do, or things in my life, they seem so splendid. But then when I actually do them, or simply live my life, they’re not half as appealing as they were when I thought about them.

MICHAEL

Yes Marianne, you know I feel the same way. Maybe this is the root of our problem. Thinking about things is much better than actually doing things. That’s why we don’t do anything. In fear of acting outrageous, I’m scared to do anything. What does it take to ever just be real, and experience things?

MARIANNE

I think that is a conversation for another time. I’m going to bed, goodnight.

MARIANNE gets up and walks away

MICHAEL

You can’t go to bed until we’ve figured this all out.

MARIANNE looks back and smiles.

MARIANNE

We never will…

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